Complexities

Humans are the most complex forms. When we have it, we thought we lost it. When we lose it, we long for it. The longing can sometimes cause us to react like a fool. But well, we are after all, just humans.

Today is the first day of me and myself all alone in a land so far away from home. Thanks to I.T, I never missed a minute of the happenings at home. Other than the point when the sleep bug hits, I always had someone to talk to. I am indeed blessed. One like me who loved to be in midst of many can never tolerate the loneliness and indeed, it was more difficult than I could imagine.

It all began with pre-separation anxiety..oh I thought only kids get that..but I had it..for 2 long months..no medication could help and my family doctor ended up asking me to just relax and spare myself the agony of swallowing pills. The relaxing part came when I knew I would be travelling quite a bit with hubby on this trip..thinking that it could be our second honeymoon. But..oh well..it ended up being more stressful as I count down to the day he has to leave me to return home to reality.

Separation anxiety kicked in proper just 1 week into our stay in london. Nothing could help my endless diarrhoea and wrenching gastric. Never thought one could have some many symptoms turning up at the door all at the same time. But it did for me, just too bad.

Post-separation anxiety was left entirely for me to handle since hubby has left for home. I tried to have a nice long hot bath, a cup of hot milo, chatted with best friends over msn, replied emails, read through encouraging words from my dear friends in facebook and last but not least, live skyping with mummy and sister dearest..tears were inevitable but at least I am trying my best to cope.

So here am I, trying to do the last thing for today to cope with the post-separation anxiety, updating my blog.

If nothing helps, may some almighty out there please lend a helping hand!